quality week

my week has been really really good!

monday - i went out with tasha for the day and we had a laugh and then we ended up seeing a mate and chatting to them for over an hour which was cool then we went and had fish nd chips!

tuesday - i went to bedford with mum during the day and then to my nans and in the evening i went cinema with dan,rob,adam,greg,steve and tasha and we saw hitch which was a laugh, thanks for a good time xx.

wednesday - i met tasha in town and we had a walk around and went to nandos, in the evening she slept over. we watched spice girls video! my baptism and mean girls.

thursday - me and tasha were lazy and didnt get up til late. i cooked us lunch :+) and then we went into town.

i dont know what im doing tomorrow yet, i might just chill out but im not sure. but im having a good holiday so far!

easter sunday

well tonight was really good. God really blessed Lynsey and her talk was really good, well done lyn xx i did the prayers with tasha and i think they went well i wasnt really that nervous. toby did a great job leading, hannah did a good job doing reading and the guys on welcome and refreshments did good job too, so well done everyone :+)

i really felt Gods presence again at church today, and it was really encouraging to be told at the begining of the service tonight how encouraging i was when i was worshipping this morning :+)

so its the holiday, i dont really think it feels like the holiday at the minute. i havent got anything planned so its not great! but im hoping il find something to do each day. well il write soon xxx

easter sunday

easter sunday today, and i can eat chocolate again, but if im honest im not even looking forward to eating it! church was good today, im pleased mum came :+) church tonight im looking forward to, lynsey is doing the talk, toby is leading, im doing prayers with tasha and other people from infinity are doing different things. nan nd grandad are coming in a min for lunch. il write more tonight xxx

good friday

today was awesome, church was so amazing, you could really feel God and his love. our infinity zone went really well and im pleased we did it, as i think people found it moving. i found tashas mums cells zone really moving, with the hands prints and writing your name on a stone and then placing it in water and your sin been washed away. mum came church and i really if im honest didnt think she was going to and she did, and it really made my day. after the holy space finished i helped pack up and a group of us went subway and had a laugh. then i was ment to met up with the guys again later but that didnt happen - sorry everyone. i went lcf tonight with mum as she really wanted me to go, i didnt really want to go and was going to go and meet the others, but then i desided id go with mum and im pleased i did. i think she really met with God and she is coming to church on sunday. im so pleased God is working in her life and she is letting him work in her life. also found out, one of josh's best mates is a christian, which i never knew until tonight, and i had a little chat with him which was cool as i dont really know him.

Father,
i thank you for today, i thank you that mum came, i thank you that i found out chris was a christian, i thank you that all of us, (me,dan,adam,rob,hannah,steve and tasha) have all grown yet again as mates, i thank you father for today. Jesus i thank you that you died on the cross for my sin, and everyones sin and father i love you with all my heart. i really pray that on sunday mum would meet with you even more lord and i pray if she has any questions she would talk to me about it. father i thank you for today. amen xxxxx

its the holz!

yay guys! its the holiday, i hope i dont get ill again like last holiday. im in a good mood, only have one piece of homework to do, and im going to do it now so i have no homework to do over the next 2weeks.im annoyed though, my work experiance thing fell through the 6choices i made and they all fell through, so ive got it make 6 new choices, but ive desided im going to write to the places i have in mind to go and do it that way. parents evening went well last night, the problems i had with some teachers have all been sorted, so everything is ok. i got pretty good reports and the subjects i didnt think id get good reports in were not that bad so its all good.

ive not been back from church long, went and helped set up for tomorrow. im really praying about tomorrow that everyone will experiance God and his love. well i hope everyone is ok, and il write soon xXxXx

detention!

well i had an hour detention in maths tonight, a long story why which some of u no, and i cant be bothered to go into detail about it. but the detention was alright, i got 2pieces of homework done in the hour. i got a B- in my drama exam :+) and a C in the practical. and in my cooking exam i got 73% and came third highest in the year! so im proud of myself which that! two days left at school and then the holiday, im making sure i have all my homework done before this holiday so il have nothing to worry about and can just enjoy myself. tomorrow night i have parents evening and then thursday after school im going to church to help set up for our holy zone, so the next couple of days will proberly go pretty quick. xxxx

praise the Lord

tonight at church was amazing. it was so awesome. hearing Barrys testomoney. and then the responce. i prayed before the break for infinity as a whole, i prayed the people who were at church tonight from infinity would not care about the people around them but praise God. it was happening before the break. the worship was awesome and i really felt in Gods presence. then after Barry spoke, his responce was if you wanted to feel the Holy spirit to stand up and for people around them to pray for the people standing. and to see people from infinity who have come away from God and people in infinity a long way in their faith and people who infinity who do not really know God stand up was amazing. as i was on prayer minestry i was going round praying for the girls. i really felt God in the room, i knew he was there and i could see him working in so many people. it really was amazing to be apart of it.

we were given a challenge at the end of the service. in the next 24hours to tell another christian about tonight and what God is doing. and in the next 48hrs tell a non christian about what happened tonight and what God is doing. ive already done the second one, i told my mum and brother about it.

Father, i really really really want to thank you for tonight, Lord it was so amazing to be apart of tonight to be in your presence. Lord i really thank you for answering my prayer. i really want to pray for everyone who stood up tonight i pray you fill them with your Holy spirit so that they are over flowing. Father, i pray for the people who didnt stand but want to know you, i pray they would come to know you. Lord, i pray i could be a real shineing light. Father i pray for the next week, Holy week, Father i pray for people who dont yet know you, that they would come to know you Lord, and i pray for people who have come away from you, that they would come back to you. and i pray everyone who knows you at the moment Lord, or has once know you, will know you love them unconditionally. so Father, i just thank you for tonight, and i pray now that everyone who was at church tonight, can go out and be a witness and tell others about tonight. i pray people will carry on worshipping you everyday in the week, not just today. and i pray for myself, after chatting to steve about trying to set up a CU at school which he feels i should do. i pray i would be able to Lord, and i pray you would help for me to be able to do it and know what and how things need to be done. amen xxx

thanks tasha :+)

me and tasha had a really nice night tonight, just the 2 of us went out in the end, and we had a really nice time. we chatted bout everything and anything, and was really cool. had a nice meal in nandos and then saw 4 of my mates from school, who were bowling so we stayed with them for a bit which was a laugh, then we went and had a coffee, well i had a coffee, tash had hot chocolate! tomorrow night will be cool too, tasha is sleeping over, so thats going to be really cool. tasha im propa lucky to have you as a mate, i love ya soooooooooo much xxxxxxx

the exams are over :+)

so the exams are all over, aprt from in may when we have a modular science exam, but they do not bother me. so now its all downhill until year10 is over and year11 begins. its nice at school at the moment, the atmosphere between all of my year is nice and does not feel like a bitchy enviroment to be in. also loads of us that are mates have started to hang around together. today was nice, after we'd all eat we went and sat outside and just had a chat and a laugh.

mum last night was chatting to be about good and evil. i was telling her about God and the devil and tried to explain it to her the best i could. i prayed for her last night and ive invited her to church on good friday.

well il write soon, im going to go and play fetch with my dog as its a nice sunny day! xxxxxx

spanish reading exam + dt cooking exam

*16/03/05*
the spanish reading exam went well, sorry i didnt post yesterday about it, blogger wouldnt let me sign in. i got my grade back today for the spanish reading exam, i got a C and got 37/50! i was so pleased. i didnt do as well on the spanish listening though, i got an E on that with 27/50. so my overall spanish grade is D which im pleased with.

i got my drama practical grade back i got a C so thats cool, and once i get the assessment back i will get an overall grade for that as well.

history lessons are good at the moment, we have been put into our sets now and im in higher set, also the boy i used to be best mates with is in my class, and we have started chatting again now, so maybe this will be the start to us becoming mates again.

*17/03/05*
had the dt cooking exam today, my last exam, and it went really well. was embarasing though as my form was let out late and when we arrived at the exam it had already started so i had to walk in on my own as the people in my form had still not arrived at the hall and everyone looked up at me!! but the exam went well, and i did my best in it. tomorrow i get a grade sheet with the current grades im working at. im not really worried ab0ut that xxxx

tonight :+)

cell was awesome tonight, me,tasha and emma had a real chance to be honest with each other and to talk about things that are on our minds at the moment. emma and tasha are such amazing people and i love having them as mates. we had a laugh and we prayed for ages and it went really well. we havent had cell just the 3 of us for ages so was nice to but would have been even better if ruth had been there. get better soon ruth, we missed you xxx

had my game of pingpong with charlie, i actully managed to keep a rally going, we have to play pingpong again charlie!! and then when i played it with steve the ball smacked my leg which hurt, so i stopped playing and simon played in my place!

i really felt God tonight in the worship, ive felt God a lot recently, i really know he is there, working in my life. school has got better lately, im not minding it as much as i was, i still find it really boring but as everyone is maturing its becoming a much nicer enviroment to be in, so thats cool, and i really am thankful to God for working in that to help for me to enjoy it. im really looking forward to the weekend away which is in about a month as i think it will be great for all of infinity to grow as friends and im looking forward to growing even deeper in my relationship with God.

its so hard to think in about 7weeks year11 are gone and out of school. that is going to come so quickly, its hard to think when they go we are the oldest in the school, and then in no time we will be the ones leaving.

i couldnt really sleep last night, i had a really bad headache which id had for a couple of hours before i went to bed and it got really bad, so i kept waking up every hour or so, but it didnt matter, today i was wide awake and havent really felt tired, normally on a monday morning im so tired and im like argh i dont wanna get up but today was ok. i think the weather helps, as whens its sunny i feel more inclined to get up and make the most of the day.

im pleased tomorrow i have a day off from the exams, i cant believe how quickly the last week has gone, it felt like it went slow, but when i think about it, it did go quite quick. i no i said a couple of weeks ago how i was dreading my exam period, but it actully has not been that bad. im just pleased they are done, and im hoping we dont have much work set to do over the easter break. well il write in the next couple of days xxxxx

spanish listening exam

the spanish exam went quite well :+) wasnt easy but wasnt hard. so im pleased thats over, only 2 exams left to do!!! next one on wednesday which is the spanish reading one and then on thursday i have the DT food exam.

i got my maths grade back today, i had got a U on it, (it was a A* - D paper) but then my teacher told us to count the ticks to check if they had been added up correctly. mine hadnt. turns out i got a D :+) so i did pass. you needed 26% to get a D and i had 24% on my paper which was a U, when i rechecked though i had ticks which hadnt been counted, so i told my teacher who checked and i got exactly 26% so i passed it just! so thats good. xxxx

past and future

wow, charlies sermon had so much to think about tonight. one thing i will not forget which he said -- "when the devil reminds you of your past, remind him of his future" i will also remember how the Holy Spirit is the most powerful weapon :+) God is so awesome, he has all our lives mapped out for every exact thing which will happen, its so amazing to know this.

Nicks sermon this morning, when he said sometimes we are angry at God for taking away loved ones. its a year tomorrow since my Godfathers child died, am i angry, no im not. i know she is in a better place with the Lord, and he will look after her.

something which has been on my heart lately is about how God loves us unconditionally, even if we deny him, disobey him, come away from him. everything and anything we do, God STILL loves us. it makes me feel really special to know this, to know my name is tattoed on his hand, to know he is always there, welcoming me, arms wide open. i know people who have come away from the Father and my prayer is that they will know of Gods love and that it is unconditional and that they will come back to him.

ive got my spanish listening exam tomorrow, am i nervous, well yeh i am, im scared im going to forget everything ive learnt, but i no God will be there by my side and its going to be ok. il write tomorrow how it goes xxx

once again i thank you

i've just managed to walk away from getting in a mazzive arguement with my brother. it happened about 30mins ago as he was winding me up so much so i managed to walk away went upstairs and put my worship music on really loud and told God how im feeling. i feel a bit relaxed now.

just listened to Jesus Christ, Once again i thank you. and i really do want to thank the Lord, for always been there with me for never leaving me and for loving me unconditionally. xxxx

drama exam

my drama exam went well. there were two questions and you had to chose which one to answer. i chose the first one. we hada scene from blood brothers, act 4, scene 1, and had to say how you would play eddie or linda. i wrote how i would play linda. this scene went well because when i read it for the first time in class a few months ago, it made me think about my holiday for personal reasons. therefore in the exam i could write it and really think about how to play the character. so the exam went quite well :+)

i got my history exam results today, i got a B so im pleased, it means im staying in my class and not been moved to the lower class. im also pleased because a certain person who im no longer that good a friends with is moving up to my class. we had a meeting about berlin, the trip we are ment to go on in year 11, there are 4 people to many and our teacher is trying to arrange with the people we are booking with to let us all go, but if this doesnt work, 4names will be picked out a hat and them 4people will not be able to go. i really hope i can go. me and that certain person were chatting at the meeting when we were been told about what is happening, and he made me smile as we were chatting like when we used to be best friends, so im hoping that now as we will be in the same lesson, we will become friends again.

so 5 exams down and its the end of the week, im so happy it is the weekend, i am so tired. my spanish lesson was so boring today that we were all falling asleep and a boy im mates with in my class actully did fall asleep which was funny. so next week i have both my spanish exams which i think will go out as we have practiced for them in class and i have my dt exam, then all the exams are over. last night i managed to press on with my english essay and thats nearly finished, as we found out yesterday in the lesson it was due in neat and completed by two weeks yesterday so she could mark it over the holiday. so i cracked on with it last night and ive basically finished it, just need to add a little bit to it.so everything is good at the moment. :+) im just really tired so im going to have a relaxing weekend.

every morning before going to school ive been listening to worship music and its really relaxed me.

Father, i want to thank you for helping this week to go ok, i want to thank you that my exams have all been ok, and that i did well in the history exam. Lord i pray this weekend i will have a relaxing weekend and will not do to much as im feeling so tired. and i pray next week the last 3exams will go well. Father, next week will be better as i dont have exams everyday and they are spread out. so Lord i just pray now i'll have a good weekend and i thank you for been with me all the time. Amen xxxx

maths calculator exam

the maths calculator exam went much better than the other maths exam. this exam was by no means easy but was easy compared to the other maths paper. i showed all my workings out and answered every question so hopefully il have done ok on it.

i've just had my drama lesson and showed my practical piece of drama work. my groups work had to be based on the theme "what have i done" i was the main character, a girl who started a new school, due to her and her father moving away as her mother has died. i made friends with a girl and two other girls didnt like it as they were bitchy so they used me to get back at the other girl as they didnt like her due to her stealing one of their boyfriends. they stole my characters mothers jewellery and set it up so it looked like the girl they hated was to blame so i wanted revenge. they got my characters mothers jewellery back and poured petrol on the girl they hated house, while she was in the house. they them gave me a macth that i lit and they hit my hand so the match flew out my hand and set her house alight. my character then went home and slit her wrists. her dad found her and she ended up been hospitalised. the girl who was in the fire was ok and the other two characters had a mazzive arguement. the play ended with the girls all becoming friends and my characters dad taking a picture of the 4 of us. we used anastacias song heavy on my heart for the scene my character slit up wrists and for the ending as well.

everyone said how moving and good the piece was, and loads of people who gave comments on the work said how well i played my character and how good my face expressions were.and my teacher said how much better it was from when we did a different practical before. and how we all met our targets from the last piece of work. so im pleased :+) tomorrow ive got my drama written exam but im not that worried about it. 4exams done, 4 to go!!! xxx

english exam

the english exam is now done!! i think personally it went quite well. i managed to use my time wisely for the three questions we had to answer and i had five mintues to spare at the end. i did this test differently to normal tests, everytime i'd written a couple of paragraphs i'd read over what i had written and it helped for me to write the next section. im pleased this is exam is over, a hour and 40mins of sitting in a hall in silence doing an exam is quite hard. but it all went ok. the questions were very different to what i was expecting, and to start with i was a bit confused of what i had to do. however i re-read it and i understood it and took time to digest the questions before answering.

this was also a higher paper that i was sitting, and believe me it was much different to the maths higher paper. ive just had a maths lesson. and found out that one of the questions in the booklet was to hard for us to answer so we have been given the full 5marks for it and if we got it correct an extra 2marks has been added. the maths exams are ment to be marked by next week. i reacon ive done rubbish on it but ive got the other one tomorrow so il just have to try harder with that one. il write tomorrow about the maths calculator paper.

im impressed, the teachers are marking these exams quite quickly so i am hoping il have all my grades back to me before easter if not il have them all back the week we return to school after the easter holiday. xxxx

i cant think of a title

ive just realised something, on monday the 14th it is a year since my God dads child died of cancer when she was aged 7. i cant believe a year has gone by, i still think about her everyday. my thoughts are really going to be with the family over this month as its going to be tough for them.

i dont really know where the last year has gone to be honest. this time last year was a really hard time for me. i came away from God a bit and at the end of April last year my nan died. i was reading over a prayer book i kept from last year and its so moving to see how much ive grown in my faith in the last year. ive got so many people to thank for that, people from church, who have been so encouraging and supporting, i especially want to thank, Nick, Charlie, Christine, Karen, Tasha, Hannah, Daniel, Rob, Steve, Lynsey, Alan, Sarah T, Gill, Ruth, Miriam and anyones name who ive not written on here. i love you all even if ive not written you on here, does not mean you havent supported me because you wil have in some aspect. everyone at church really welcomed me last year when i first started coming to stmarys, and im so pleased i know all of you. you lot are my family and i love you all with all my heart. ive got everyone who comes to church to thank because everyone has played a part of me growing in my faith in one way or another. and i want to thank Jesus, for never leaving me, when times are hard he carrys me, when times are good he walks along side me, and i love him with all my heart, he is my best friend and my Saviour.

just found out i get my grade sheet for year 10 next friday, ahhh!!! i hope it'll be ok. im sure it will, im completely trusting in God with these exams and i know although im going to find some of them tough, God is with me and is going to support me what ever the outcome.

my msn screen name at the moment is taken from the U2's latest song. it says --> "sometimes, you cant make it on your own..... " this is so true, when ever we think we've got everything under control and we are ok, normally we arent. and i really find this song moving and i know for a fact i normally cant make a lot of things on my own and if i didnt have my friends and Jesus i would be really stuffed.

last night at infinity, one of the questions was, who are we investing in and who is investing in us? i think im investing in a lot of people, but one of the main people im investing in is Tasha, shes been by my side through thick and thin and im so greatful to her for it. i can tell her anything and i know she will keep it to herself and help me if ive got a problem. she looks out for me and supports me through so much. she is my big sis and i love her loads.

anyway il write tomorrow, im off to bed. xxxxxx

maths exam non caculator

the first of my maths exams has gone crap. i opened the page and didnt know how to answer the first question, this made me get a bit choked as i panicked but i went through the book and tried to answer the questions i knew how to do which was about one of them!! but then i went back to the beginning and was a bit more relaxed so i just answered all the questions showing my working out and tried my best to do them. this exam went really badly but nevermind these things happen. everyone else who took the higher paper like myself said they found it hard so i wasnt on my own.

so 2 down 6 to go!!! i cant wait until this time next thursday when all these exams are over! well ive got english tomorrow, il post how it goes tomorrow.

history exam

the history exam went really well actully so im pleased. i did my best on it and im happy with what i did and i prayed to God as i had 10mins left and asked him when i checked it through to point out anything i needed to recheck which he did :+) so its all good. so 1 exam down and 7 to go! the one i was most worried about it over so im pleased.

i saw my old youth worker from my old church, who isnt the youth worker than any more but has moved back to luton. we had a really nice chat as we are like brother and sister so much, and it was really nice to chat with him before the exam as he was really encouraging about it.

il write again tomorrow about the first maths exam!!!!

:+S

im feeling a bit scared, exams tomorrow, but il be fine and im going to keep telling myself that. church was good tonight. me doing the prayers! - thanks daniel for saying i was going to!!!!! but it was ok, they went really well and thank you to christine and miriam for really been supportive and thank you to everyone who prayed for me and for everyone for been really encouraging after i did the prayers - i love you all. i was well scared but they went ok i think so its cool. Nicks sermon was good, and watching the kids on the street video again really touched me. everyone was really chatty tonight after church so that was cool and Adam,Daniel,Steve and Rob made me laugh while i was waiting for mum to come and get me. so thanks guys for all been there. so exams tomorrow, you know, i dont really know why im scared, history is probs the subject im best at but im so scared of messing but, i know i have to trust in God as he is in control. so il let everyone know how the exams go during the week. thanks to everyone for your prayers xxxxxx love you all xxxxxxx

concert

the concert at manshead was well good. i really enjoyed it. steve played the guitar really well. naomi, his little sis, sang her solo really well, she has an amazing voice and Greg, playing one of the main characters was awesome. i really enjoyed the play and me hannah and tasha had a nice night. im really tired now so im going to go bed. xxxxx

hannah --> i just want you to know im here for you with everything you are going through at the moment, im never ever going to leave you. anytime you need a chat im here and my shoulder is here for you to cry on and im glad you are happy now you are with jamie. love you xxxxxx

tasha --> im here for you with the pain you are going through at the moment. babe i love you so much and we can be single together. my shoulders here for you if you are in need of a cry. love you xxxxxx

argh

it snowed and only four high schools in luton bothered to stay open!!! mine been one of them!! im so annoyed i really did think we were going to get a snow day! the snow day me and josh have wanted for so long but no it didnt happen. so i got to school 10mins late but the teacher didnt mind and i managed to get away from any snow hitting me. then we were told if it snows all the way through period 1 then at 11oclock we will think about sending you home, but this didnt happen. so many people got fed up and desided to try and bunk off and walk out of school, it worked for a few people then the teachers realised and locked the gates and got the undercover police to come up. then in lessons the receptionist came and wrote peoples names down who were not in lesson but had been in school and rang their parents. i asked my headteacher why our school wasnt shut and she went 'stopsley is for learning' which was quite funny how she did it. walking up the hill wasnt as bad as it has been in the past so that was ok. was funny aparently on 3countys radio, when they annouced school clousers, in a jokey way they went and Stopsley High School is still open!!!! made me laugh when people told me. so once again i still havent had snow day, but at least i was able to reherse my drama at lunch and i was able to get my history book in order to revise for the exam which we have on monday. tonight im going to manshead to see steves school concert which should be good and i was ment 2 be sleeping at tashas but i cant as mum thinks that it will be better to do the sleepover in the easter holiday because i need to make sure i got enough sleep for these exams, especially the history one because we are been grouped depending on our grades. xxxxx

:+)

right this minute im feeling rather proud of myself! i just had a practice exam gcse for spanish and i got 32/40 a grade C the highest grade you can get on the paper we were doing, so thats made me feel happy. the science exams went ok, we hadnt learnt hardly anything which was in them, so that was a bit crap but ive done my best and thats all that can matter. so no more science exams til may! this morning on the way to school i saw Jonny and walked with him some of the way to school as he was going college and we had a nice chat. and last night had a good night at the cinema with Daniel, Adam, Fiona and Hannah. went and saw Hide And Seek. was quite good but predictable what the little girl was going to say. so im feeling a bit happier. im just pleased the science exams are done as im not as worried about the exams next week. God has really answered my prayer and helped for me to relax about them. so things are ok :+)