NEW YEAR

have a good 2oo6 everyone.

6 MONTHS!

til i leave school!!! 30th june the official leaving date but i leave 23rd june cos thats my last exam!! i just worked it out. that is pretty scary stuff! 6months and thats it, school is over forever! and the fact that about 5weeks of that is holiday and 5weeks of that is exams! AHH! really not long......

Just Like Heaven

went to see that today with hannah and tasha. its such a good film. resse witherspoon (who plays elizabeth the main character) has a crash on the way home from work and sees a bright light.....her apparment is then rented out and she appears....turns out its her spirit there not her. a guy called david is living in her apparment and he has a drinking problem due to his wife dying, she helps him overcome it and they become friends....she then discovers again who she is and finds out shes been in a coma for 3months. her life support machine is going to be turned off cos her sister has signed some forms to say yes turn it off. elizabeth does not want to die....and asks david to help her. he tries to speak to her sister who thinks hes mad so he desides to run away with her body...however he is caught and so he kisses her - her heart stops and then restarts and she wakes up not knowing who david is....when elizabeth finally goes home, david is making a garden for her as she had always wanted a garden....he gives her the key back and elizabeth ends up remembering who he is and they kiss and it ends. they are both happy.

yeah so a soppy film and i havent really sumed it up in great detail. but i really enjoyed it. it made me think....what if i died tomorrow and hadnt let people know certain things, or what if i hadnt done something and wish i had.

so yeah a good film and the last film il see of 2005!

new year - 2oo6

not long till new year now. christmas was good enjoyed it even though i was ill :+( am better now just have me cough but otherwise im all good! hard to think christmas has been and gone - the whole build up to it and now its over!!

ive thought back a lot about this past year and how there is so many memories which is holds.....

• the 24hour famine
• the weekend away
• the times spent at cemy!
• spain
• easter
• christmas
• soul survivor - and meeting some amazing people and new friends - Tom, Simon, Luann, Kieran, Gareth and for building up friendships with people who hadnt been to stmarys for ages
• ignite
• trips to nandos and aroma and comotion!
• backstreet boys
• coldplay
• birthday parties
• berlin
• building up stronger friendships with people

thats just a few highlights which this year holds....there are so many more but those are the ones which stick out to me. you know when i look at my year like that....i cant really complain, ive had a pretty good year. yeah ok....so this year has had some downs aswell... but they havent been as bad as some of the issues other people have faced this year. i think one thing i need to improve next year is how i should be more grateful for things i have....for example.....

• friends
• a family that loves me
• for a roof over my head
• the fact christ died on the cross for me so i can be forgiven
• food to eat

this year has been a special year. i really hope that next year will be just as good. next year holds a lot of things which are big things that are going to happen in my life -

• leaving school
• going to college
• starting to drive
• getting a job

so yeah thats my sum up of 2oo5. sure theres more i could add and if i think of anything i will add it!

i hope everyone has a great 2oo6 cos you all deserve it. love each of you xxxx

merry christmas

thats all i got too say! enjoy.....

ChRiStMaS!

so its christmas tomorrow and im finally in the christmas mood! however im ill! i felt ill thursday night and then yesterday i ended up spending the whole day on the sofa but im feeling better now - still not 100% but no where near as bad as i did feel! so its all good :+) i just need to wrap up mums present and then im completely finished! worked well doing the majority of my shopping at the begining! so was good. had a nice chat with hairy last night - thanks hairs :+)

well have a great christmas everyone! x x x

seven...

well soph wrote on her blog for me to do this....

So...Seven...

Things to do before I die

1. change someone's life for the better
2. get married and have a family
3. go to austraila
4. have some land in a foregin country
5. build up closer relationships with friends and make more friends
6. still be walking with the Lord
7. get my family to become christian

Things I cannot do

1. stand bitching (even though im guilty of this i hate it)
2. keep a straight face when im meant to!
3. laugh quietly
4. not smile back if someone smiles at me
5. blank someone if i know them
6. sit by and not try and help someone when they're in need of help
7. go a day without texting!

Things I say most often

1. joker
2. awww
3. hi guys
4. shutup
5. love you
6. thanks honey
7. whatever

Books I love

1. nobodys child
2. of mice and men
3. the shock of your life
4. jacqueline wilson (nearly all of her books)
5. bloodbrothers (even though its a play not a book!)
6. jordans autobiography (found this very intresting)
7. inspector calls ( all though i hated reading this whilst we did it, since reading it again it carries a really strong message)

Movies I could watch over and over

1. lion king
2. love actually
3. about a boy
4. the wizard of oz!
5. dude wheres my car
6. the snowman
7. grease

All-time albums

1. soul survivor 2005 - (this has good memories as well as all the songs been really great worship songs)
2. coldplay - x&y
3. michael jackson - history
4. bryan adams - best of me
5. spice girls! (sad i know but i loved them when i was lil)
6. best of rem
7. anastacia - welcome too my truth

People to do this next

1. tasha
2. christine
3. karen
4. hairy
5. tom
6. mareike
7. liz

that was actually quite hard!! hehe! enjoy.........

meaningful.....

i heard some lyrics tonight, and these lyrics really did make me think because i think its quite true what they say....

Everybody talks bad about somebody, and never realises how it affects somebody.....Cos people are all the same, And we only get judged by what we do.....

these lyrics made me think about highschool, we broke up today for the holiday. but i had a chat with my re teacher about sterotypical things which are happening and he said about how year7 dont care what others think about them unlike year 9 who really do and then theres year11 who are begining to become themselves and discover who they are. these lyrics made me think about this, when people talk about others behind their back, they dont think about the side affects and how this person could be affected in the long run. wel anyway thought id share that one.....

so yeah the holiday has began and im a happy bunny at the moment, but this isnt just because its the holiday, its because a couple of prayers have been answered, one of the tgi girls ive been praying for as havent seen her for a while was in town yesterday so i had quite a long chat with her and then someone from infinity who ive been praying for and hadnt seen for ages i saw on sunday and then i went out with her today so that was really cool :+)

christmas in 4days....town in mad and its so obvious some people have forgotten about the real meaning of christmas, and now it is just about presents, the alpha course which is running at school was on last thursday and the question which was the challenge was"what does christmas mean to you" and when we go back after the holiday we are going to talk about it as we spoke about it before and then are going to see if our opinion has changed. im really praying for those in school that attended that alpha session that they will return with the outlook that christmas is about Christ's birth.

ive had quite a busy few days, ive been in town for most of it! my phone broke so i had to take it to the shop and its getting repaired now so hopefully it'l be mended before christmas! and then saw rob so chilled with him for a bit and then we bumped into charlie so us 3 chilled out for about 30mins. i went out with hannah yesterday to exchange christmas presents. and then today finished school and a group of us went to aroma for lunch with charlie and andy which was really nice :+)

tomorrow im going to town yet again! and friday im out with mum which will be nice. think we are going to hitchen and are going to go for a coffee and just chill out so that will be cool and im looking forward to it.

i know quite a lot of people from school read my msnspace so i wrote on that about the real meaning of christmas and i hope that they dont forget about it this christmas time whilst they are enjoying themselves. we set ourself a challenge in tgis....we set them the challenge that on christmas day to spend some quiet time with God even if its just 5-10mins and us leaders are going to do it aswell. so that will be cool.

well im tired - so im off to bed. just want to say especailly to Miriam and Kieran if you are reading this - that i hope you both have a great christmas and enjoy it! x x

il post again before christmas! so have a good few days everyone xxx

COLDPLAY!

went and saw coldplay in concert last night - one word - AMAZING. it was the best concert i have ever been to, most of the songs they sang were from X&Y but they did some of their older songs aswell. chris martin came into the audience for one song! and when singing Yellow - they through loads of big yellow inflatebale ballons! the concert ended with Fix You and everyone was singing along to it - so the recording on my phone has come out really good! had such a great night and loved every moment of it. it was definatly my best birthday present i got this year and id love to see them in concert again!

big weight lifted

the exams i were worried about are now all done and dusted and i am very happy! had the spanish writing real gcse exam today and it went really well - i remembered what i needed to and now its finished! i have one mock left to do - spanish reading but its only a mock and then next week i have me real drama gcse exam but i am not worried about that. im so glad that these exams are nearly finally over. ive been going into the exams with a positive mind though and prayed before ive started the paper just that il do my best and then i begin! so there done and dusted.

coldplay is on friday....am really looking forward to it. will be a really good concert and i cant wait until i go to it....its gonna be so much fun :+)

im in quite a good mood this week....it just feels like a big weight has been lifted off me and now i am relaxing a lot more. also ive had some good chats with the people who saw me on songs of praise in my year. and the one guy who took the piss, i was talking to today and he turned round and said sorry once i explained to him that i didnt care what he thought and i was making a stand for my faith.

so yeah thats it from me. see ya x

regrets....

everyone does things they regret...they wish they hadnt said something or wish they had said something. they wish they hadnt done something or wish they had done something. wish they'd called someone when they should have but missed the chance. wish they had told someone they love them but missed the oppourtinity. wish they hadnt txt someone the message they sent. wish they knew the answers to the situations they come across. wish they were there for someone when they needed. wish they hadnt been rude to someone. wish they had given someone a hug.

everyone does different things that they regret....those things arent all realted to me - but they are regrets that i can think of that i or other people have done. but one thing ive learnt....is that i have the most amazing friends that love me no matter what.....

NO SCHOOL!

just got home from infinity to find school is shut tomorrow! i am well happy! day off - means i can relax and chill out! am very very pleased!!! im still gunna get up normal time and do my spanish coursework and then il go town or somewhere for the day!! its good stuff really!!

narnia was really good - i really enjoyed it and was great to have mum there with me = ive had great chats with people who have seen the film and little lucy was soooooo cute. also lots of people saw me on songs of praise from school and said how good it was that i made a stand for my faith. only one person took the mick! but i made a big impact on people which was good, i think!

hope everyone ok x xx x

appeared!

i was on tv! get in! was so funny, everyone that i saw who i knew i was like theres so and so!!! all my family was watching and so was my bros girlfriends families! hehe!! but i was shown! am very proud! x x x

worst english accent.....

was the award given to me at the berlin awards! made me laugh loads! everyone got really funny awards....including the teachers! was a real laugh! and im proud of me good old way of speaking!!!

exams 3quaters complete...some went really good others not...but you know, i realised its only my mocks.....not the real exam and i got so much time to improve. so its ok now. i got a C in english lit which means in the real exam i should get a B! so that was cool.

im seeing narnia with mum tonight am looking forward to me and her chilling out. we've both has stressful weeks so desided we'd go out. so i got the tickets yesterday for us. i went to dinner with claire yesterday too....was really nice we had a great chat and i really enjoyed it - thanks claire x x x and i saw charlie for a while to which was cool.

well have good weekend everyone and dont forget - SONGS OF PRAISE!!!

gonna be on TV!

quick reminder - "SONGS OF PRAISE FROM STMARYS LUTON" this sunday - 5.10pm! make sure you watch it!! im gonna be on tv!!!!

true friends....

something so special has just been said to me. the girl who i was best friends with all through primary school and still friends with now has just said something so touching to me. we hardly see each other anymore but we are still always in contact and still close and i saw her saturday....she just said to me that she still classes me as her bestest ever friend cos im always there for her. im so glad me and her still have the friendship we used to and she is definatly someone i class as a true friend. i love her so much x x x

Time out....

i realised something the last couple of days. everything has got to much, all the small things which have been happening have built up and really gotten to me! know how i realised this...because sunday night i started crying after church, last night i started crying before infinity and then when i got to infinity i started crying in cell! i havent felt myself the last few days and ive just tried to ignore it. i never usually cry unless something major has happened. i think God is telling me i need some time out and need to slow down and take one thing at a time. so many things have been going on and each has carried its own stress and its all become to much. i just wanted to hide under my duvet last night and cry. tonight when i got home from school i wanted to cry as my exams went AWFUL but then naomi rang me and we had a really long chat and she cheered me up. it feels at the moment like im been weighed down and i just need to be realised. had a good chat with mum last night though and she made me realise something - she said God wouldnt put more upon me than i could handle and there is a way out and i just need to life how im feeling to God and trust God. i hadnt really thought about this to be honest and when i did i realised it was true. Tom said to me about my exams that what ever happens, happens. and this actually is really true and i know i need to worry less about them. a few other people have said that to me aswell - they are at the end of the day only my mocks and not the real exam and yeah they re important but i need to remember that i can improve and not worry and what every1 has said is very true. the exams today went awful but like mum said they are over and now i need to look towards the next exams. i know at the minute im looking at a lot of things negitivly and ive realised that i need to take myself away from things and look after myself for a while and put myself first.....i dont want to sound selfish saying that but i have realised if i dont im going to continue to feel like i do at the moment. christine has been a star....for comforting me on sunday night and for just been there and been so great and listening.....its ment so much that she has just listened to me and all i wanna say is thank you christine and i love you. things are hard at the moment and i know i need to admit that....i need to admit it to myself and i think ive realised it finally and it has sunk in. in 2weeks its the holiday and its gunna be a break from everything and thats what i need right now, a break....! tasha has been great aswel and im really thankful to her for listening when ive wanted a chat. so many people have been so great and im so thankful to God that i have awesome people around me that can support me through the tough times aswell as the good times.i had a really long chat with my bro last night as he got me from infinity and i dont see him as much now since hes moved but anyway i went round his for a bit cos mum was there and me and him had a really good chat and he was really sweet and has said when things get to much if i just want sometime away from everything to ring him and i can go round his and his gfs house. this ment a lot to know i can just go and chill as his. once tomorrow is over school will be better, i have done 5exams so far and tomorrow i have exams all day so once tomorrow is over il have done 8exams! so its a big difference and then il have 6left to do! im going out with claire for dinner on thursday which im really looking forward to. will be able to have a good chat with her. Thank you to all those praying for me at the min, especially to my cellgroup, christine, tom, gareth and tash.well this blog is going on a lot and quite negitive sorry.....

Robyn Hood and Aladdin Boots

thats was the LCF panto. it was very very good and i was very proud of everybody that i knew who was in it. everybody did a fantastic job and it was extrremly good, your hard work payed off well!! hope you all get lots of sleep, you deserve it. once again - well done x x x x

first exam = OVER!

had my first exam today - english lit - it went really really well. id planned my time well and read over the poems this morning so they were fresh in my head. completed the exam in the time we had and had 5mins to check it all at the end! was pleased :+)

first exam over and went well - hope the rest follow that way!

completed my practical dt work today aswel - am so pleased about that as some people still have up to 5products to make! and im ahead in my theory work aswel so its all good!!

had a good chat with one of my best mates - a guy in my year....he did prefect duty with me today and for that 30mins we were chatting about everything, was a really good chat and helped me to relax a lot about our exams and the other things stressing me at the moment!

well its the weekend - and the LCF play tomorrow which tom is in. im looking forward to it. well im off now - rock solid tonight which should be fun but before that i want to do a bit of revision! have a great weekend everyone x x x