sometimes.....

these words are from a song but are so true to something which is happening betwen a group of really good friends of mine....

Sometimes, You hurt the ones who love you most And sometimes, You hold the ones who leave you lost And sometimes You learn, but it's too late It's too late....

i am really praying for a group of my friends who have fallen out, that somehow God will help for them to forgive each other and for the situation to be sorted out. im finding it pretty tough if im honest as i do not want to fall out with any of them.

this week has been ok, gone quite quick and im glad that it is friday tomorrow! 3 weeks on saturday and im off to spain, i am so excited. i dont know if someone i met on holiday last year there, who lives in spain will be there or not, but to be honest im trusting God with it and will have to wait and see if they are there. if they are it will be nice to see them again, but we will have to wait and see what happens.

i have desided that for the next 3weeks i am going to go swimming at least once a week starting tomorrow! i just want to have some gentle exercise before going away as this summer is going to be so busy.

schools a bit of a rush at the moment, preparing for the year 6s to come up. we also doing loads and loads of coursework which has to be completed before the summer, i really hope we dont get to much homework/coursework to do over the summer, if we do then il have to do it in between holidays!

tonight i went to cemy which was cool. dan and miriam were there and me, tasha, rob, hannah and sarah went round. we started wathcing a movie but then i couldnt get into it so i went downstairs and watched tv and some of the others came as well. had a pretty good night though.

its quite scary....i cant wait to leave school like most people know but yesterday i found out we have 2 terms left and that is it! how quickly that is going to come round. im really putting a lot of effort into my work now, more than i was before. and im 17 next year....i can start to drive....time is going so quickly.

the thunderstorm on tuesday was mad. we had a powercut at home! and me and mum were caught out in the pooring rain, we got soaked! and my combats went see-through!!!! pretty embarasing!

tomorrow night tasha is sleeping over as we have ignite training on saturday! and on saturday hannah is going away with some of her mates. hannah i hope you have a really good time sugarplum, loveya loads and will miss ya! xxx

well this is quite a long post as i havent posted since monday. hope everyone ok xx

claire is a ledge

claire is a ledgend, she rang me during coldplay a couple of times so i could hear it :o> and she rang me in my fav song fix you. thank you so much claire for ringing me.Thanks Charlie and Claire! rob rang me aswell, so thanks to him.

sounds like you lot had a awesome time. xxxx

COLDPLAY!

everyone who is seeing coldplay in concert over the next couple of days - enjoy! Rob and Ali. Charlie and Claire, i hope you have a really good time! xx

FIX YOU....

When you try your best but you don't succeed When you get what you want but not what you need When you feel so tired but you can't sleep

Stuck in reverse And the tears come streaming down your face When you lose something you can't replace When you love someone but it goes to waste could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home And ignite your bones And I will try and fix you

And high up above or down below When you're too in love to let it go But if you never try you'll never know Just what you're worth

Lights will guide you home And ignite your bones And I will try and fix you

Tears stream down your face When you lose something you cannot replace

Tears stream down your face And I Tears stream down your face I promise you I will learn from all of my mistakes Tears stream down your face And I

Lights will guide you home And ignite your bones And I will try to fix you.

Love - I Corinthians 13:1-13

If I speak in the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, I am a noisy gong or a clanging cymbal.
And if I have prophetic powers, and understand all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have all faith, so as to remove mountains, but have not love, I am nothing.
If I give away all I have, and if I deliver my body to be burned, but have not love, I gain nothing.

Love is patient and kind; love is not jealous or boastful;
it is not arrogant or rude. Love does not insist on its own way; it is not irritable or resentful;
it does not rejoice at wrong, but rejoices in the right.
Love bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things.
Love never ends; as for prophecies, they will pass away; as for tongues, they will cease; as for knowledge, it will pass away.
For our knowledge is imperfect and our prophecy is imperfect;
but when the perfect comes, the imperfect will pass away.
When I was a child, I spoke like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child; when I became a man, I gave up childish ways.
For now we see in a mirror dimly, but then face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall understand fully, even as I have been fully understood.
So faith, hope, love abide, these three; but the greatest of these is love.

yesterday Rob me and tasha were talking about these verses in the bible, Rob pointed out, if u replace love with God it descirbes exactly what God is like.... :+)

TGI's!

so today i started TGIs i didn't know i was starting today as last week charlie told me i was going to be starting on the 10th july but he rang me this morning at 9-40 to tell me to go to youth house when i was dropped off. i said a quick prayer before leaving my house and i think this morning went really well. the girls in my cell are lovely and were really welcoming and im really looking forward to leading their cell.

its karens last weekend down here :+( she is going to be missed so much by us all, she has been a real encouragement to me and really been there for me, karen i really pray for u as you get ready to go to wales that God really blesses u and uses u in so many exciting ways.

ive had a pretty good week, its gone quite quickly and there fore has been pretty good!! only four weeks left in school and then its the summer holidays and i have spain, soul survivor and ignite to look forward to, its going to be an awesome summer.

the slide show that was shown at the end of church today was a good slide show. basically there were pictures of people and a caption to go with them,so it started with a picture of Nick, saying "Nick will be Nick" then a picture of Charlie, saying "Charlie will be Charlie" and then the interns, "the interns will be themseleves" after this came pictures of some tgis and then infinity! i was in some of the infinity pictures. they were showing what money can help tgis and infinity do, for example tgis going canoeing etc. was pretty good.

friday night i went out with hannah,rob,simon and louise to comotion to celebrate the end of hannahs exams and we had a nice night. yesterday i had a pretty good day, in the morning i went to town with mum and got a new dress and the afternoon me,rob and tasha went to crusaders then to robs and then we went to daniels. was a laugh, we watched the tennis and dan and rob were making me laugh so much. i realy did have the giggles yesterday!

hope everyone is ok! xxxx

hope and help

when all goes wrong let us continue to trust in you Father. let us cry out to you about how we are feeling. allow us to listen to what you have to say to us. however big or small the problem, let us confide in you. for you know the problem already, you know how it is going to be resolved. Father allow us to tell you the burdens we are carrying and take them away from us. when the devil trys to get in the way let us remind him of the future. Father help for us to stop being attacked. allow light to shine out and the darkness to stay away. amen.

that prayer is for everyone who is feeling like crap at the moment. i know a number of people who come to mind and i really am praying for them. i pray God protects them and keeps them safe, that he comforts them when they are down.

i have seen 3 people the last week and its meant a lot to me seeing them. they are people that used to come to infinity but no longer come, i had a really long chat with each of them and they all told me about what they are up to nowadays.

My troubled soul why so weighed down. You were not made to bear this heavy loud. Cast all your burdens upon the Lord. Jesus cares, he cares for you.

There’s a lot of pain but a lot more healing, there’s a lot of trouble but a lot more peace. There’s a lot of hate but a lot more loving. There’s a lot of sin but a lot more grace.

There’s a lot of fear but a lot more freedom, there’s a lot of darkness but a lot more light. There’s a lot of cloud but a lot more vision. There’s a lot of perishing but a lot more life.

feeling....hot....hot....hot!

its boiling today! this weekend has been sucha nice weekend for the weather. its been so hot and really nice. it has really reminded me of Spain. im so looking forward to summer, so much to do this holiday and its going to be great!

my work experience was really good, i really enjoyed it and was gutted to leave. but they have said when i need a job to ring them and i can have a job if there is one going, so thats nice to know. they got me a little present to say good luck which i thought was really sweet of them.

friday night it ended up just me and tasha chilling out which was cool, yesterday i went to hannahs school fete. met some of her mates aswell and saw someone i know from my old church so me and her had a really long chat.

back to school tomorrow, aint really looking forward to it, but never mind, one year left and im out of there and thats what im going to keep telling myself, as long as i focus hard and do my best thats all what matters. well i havent really got much more to say and i havent done that much. hope everyone is ok!

Hairys last post he made, was intresting about michael jackson been a "man-child". if you havent read it do, http://neilohara.blogspot.com/

also sorry to everyone if ive been a bit grumpy the last few days !

thank you Lord

Im lost in wonder,
im lost in love,
im lost in praise for evermore,
because of Jesus unfailing love,
i am forgiven,
i am restored.

Faithful one so unchanging.
Ageless one you’re my rock of peace.
Lord of all I depend on you.
I call out to you again and again.
I call out to you again and again.
You are my rock in times of trouble.
You lift me up when I fall down.
All through the storm your love is the anchor.
My hope is in you alone.

these two songs mean a lot to me, God is always with me and everyone else no matter what. these two songs have been on my heart lately. God never leaves me, good and bad he is there, happy or sad he still loves me. i guess this weekend has been really eventful and made me think alot. how such small or big things can upset you. God really did show he never leaves anyone this weekend, and i am so thankful. i did the prayers yesterday morning at church. for anyone who was not at church....this is what i prayed....

* Blow bubbles during prayers to think of the light of God*

Dear Father,

Today was really thank you that the church has had an opportunity to go away together for a weekend. We really do pray for the parish weekend, that everyone who has gone will go deeper with you and with each other. Father, we pray that you really bless those who wanted to go on the parish weekend but have been unable to for what ever reason, Father we pray they can still go deeper with you.

Father, We pray for those people who are sitting exams at the moment, we pray you take away their nerves and help for them to do their best. Father we pray you protect them and comfort them. That they do not spend so much time revising that they become too tired to concentrate in the actual exam. Father please help for those sitting exams to stay relaxed.

Father, we pray for Charlie, we thank you for all he has done and is still doing here with the young people. Father we really pray for him as he gets ready to step down from been our youth worker and gets ready to start working at Stopsley High School. We pray you really bless him and we pray he would settle quickly into his new job. And he and Claire will settle happily into their new house. We pray for our new youth worker, that you would give him new ideas and that he would be really welcomed here by everyone.

Father, we think of those in need, Father please be with them, protecting and comforting them. We think of those we know today who are in a time of need and we lift them up to you now. We also pray for those in our church who are in need of prayer.

Father, we pray for those we know that are in trouble. Father, we pray you work in their lives and keep them out of trouble. We think of those we know that are in trouble and really pray you realise the anger and help for them to trust you. Father, please guide them to you and when the devil tries to get in the way, we really pray you help for them to fight him off. Father please protect all those in trouble at this time.

Father, we pray for our town, we really want to pray for the young people, as youth house is been knocked down and that is the main thing in the town for the youth. We really pray that a new resource would be built for the young people, which would help keep them out of trouble.
Father, we lift these prayers up to you now. Amen.

the bubbles were given to the little kids to help them celebrate the light of God. the things i wrote in the prayers were things God had really put on my heart. have a good week everyone, and remember when you are having a rubbish day or a good day - God so loved the world that he gave his one and only soon so that whoever believes in him may not be lost but have eternal life. John 3 v16

Not Guilty

it has just been annoucned that michael jackson is not guilty. to be honest i didnt really know whether to think he was or wasnt guilty. this is because i think that he aint really been brought up correctly and therefore does not really understand what is and isnt right. i'd be instrested to know what everyone else thinks about this....please post your comments.

my first week!

so ive completed my first week of real work!!! wow!!! its been an experience. i have really enjoyed today and todays been my best day of the whole week. today i got to do quite a lot of different things and was given a lot of responsabilty. i also had a really nice chat with the manager, and it seems ive set a very good impression of myself from what he was saying to me :o) felt quite proud with what he was saying, and if i was 16 they would employ me and stuff! weekend now! yay! and ive got a really busy weekend! i got some really nice combat trousers tonight which are really cool and i got two new vest tops. thanks mum for buying me them!!
ive had a really nice few evenings aswell, wednesday i went to popes medow and then to cemy and last night i went out with the boys and watched them play football which was cool.
its the parish weekend now at church, im really praying for it, that as a church event the whole church will move forward and go deeper with God.

well have a good weekend everyone! xxx

first day

first day of work experience today was wicked! i started at 10 and was shown around and introuduced to everyone and then i started working! it was really good, the girls im working with are really friendly and welcoming. so looks like im going to really enjoy this experience. had lunch at 12-30 til 1-30 so i saw some people from school and then went to mums work for lunch with her. then back to work and i finished at 3. so was good :o)

COLDPLAYS album is quality, anyone what aint got it, buy it! its really really good. i watched them on mtv last night they was doing this concert thing, so i videoed it for rob.

went me nan and grandads after dad picked me up, we got some family over that ive never meet so i went and meet them as they staying at me nan and grandads, they was friendly, they from canada! x

over.....

so the holidays are over and ive had a really good week, spent today with dan rob and hannah. had a nice day. we went and had a walk looking at the graves. looking at graves indivalilly (dont know how to spel it!) it quite upsetting to see how young some people have died. then we just chilled out. saw alan at work so had a chat with him which was cool. the holidays gone quick but its been good, my best day was proberly monday, going carnival with dan and rob and then going around tashas in the evening and us all chilling out :o)

starting work experiance on monday! im well excited but also a bit nervous but il be fine! it should be good and im looking forward to it. i reacon after the 2weeks im going to dread going back to school! but il just keep telling myself only 5weeks left then off 2 spain!!!!!!!!

talking about spain....im really looking forward to going now, dont know if someone going to be there when i go or not, but to be honest im trusting God with it and if they are there then will be good and if not it'l still be good. ive got an action pack summer this year which is good, means i aint going to get bored!

i saw someone today on the way to dans, and i was really happy to see them, its the person i fel out with ages, we have made up and we chat again on msn and when i see him today i was in the car and he gave me a mazzive smile. i was pleased as all i want is for us to be good mates again before we leave school so we can leave on a happy note. so i think the arguement thats been dragging out with us is finally over.

well....next time i right will prob be monday after me first day of work experience, prayers much appreciated! xxx

early days of june!

well yesterday we went to ashridge with infinity!! only 9 of us went. but it was a really good day :o) and i really enjoyed it. we played rounders and football which was a laugh, and yeah guys you could tell i dont do a lot of sport!!! even had rob ask me if i get mum to write me a period note every week to get me out of pe!!!! in the evening tasha,rob,sarah hannah and me went round daniels to watch a movie, watched seven but i didnt see it all cause i had to go before it finished, mim was there to which was cool :o) today i went out with rob, dan and sarah for a bit and then met mum from work. tonight went round tashas and had a really good night, me tasha and hannah had one a our girly nights which we aint had in ages, it was really good. cept GRAVITY PULLED ME DOWN hehehe, daniel and hannah no what im on about. was the interviews for the new youth worker today....i really been praying about it, and think God will have helped everyone make the right desision. xxx

last few days

well on saturday i spent my day with daniel,rob,hannah and tasha. went to the park and played footy and we went to the musuem. me and tasha walked around it cause dan wouldnt come in but when we came out, he said he'd come in, so we all went round the musuem. we went to robs after for a bit and then to dans and watched a film called angel which was good (bit cheesy in parts though!) sunday went to church and that was it really.but Nicks sermon spoke to me a lot. monday, Dan and Rob took me to the carnival which was sweet of them (thanks guys) i had a really nice day chilling out with them and then we went and got tasha from work and went round hers for a bbq(the food was gorgeous - thanks malc) then we went to the park and met up with greg which was cool. and went and watched the planes, cause we could see the run way from this little hill. it really made me want to go on holiday, then hannah and sarah come join us and we chilled out before going home. yesterday i went to aroma with daniel,gordon and tasha! i never seen anyone eat as much as gordon did in there! me and tasha then went around town for a bit, then needed to go see charlie, so we went to church and spent the afternoon there, ringing people to see if they can come out on thursday for the infinity social. in the evening i saw lynsey and toby for bit and then went to charlies for a leaders meeting.

so ive had a busy few days!!! im well looking forward to summer, ive got an action packed summer!!! got so much on, and im really really looking forward to it. its going to be a summer that definatly will not be forgotten in a hurry. also found out.....im starting to lead TGIs on 26june which should be good xxx